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Aurelia Anne
21 July 2014 @ 09:28 pm
Well that's not true, I have a ton more and just got more today. But I can only throw so many at you.

I'm going to try to start writing every day, even if it's just a link or something that I picked up that hit me in some way.

I started going to the gym every day. It's actually not so bad once you get into the habit. I drop Lilianna off at camp in the morning and then I go straight there. Doing well so far, hopefully I can keep it up.

I'm also going to start taking a yoga class once a week. I'm hoping it'll help with the whole 'mindfulness' and 'awareness'. When i live in Pittsburgh, the gym I belonged to had a couple of different yoga classes and I took them all.

I've had so much dead weight to get rid of I just hope I can get rid of a little more. 
Aurelia Anne
20 July 2014 @ 09:14 am
My beautiful baby in the Fun Fashion and Evening Wear competitions. This child truly is amazing
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Lilianna is wearing Mac Duggal

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Lilianna is wearing Sherri Hill
Aurelia Anne
19 July 2014 @ 03:02 pm
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Here is Lilianna with her Hair and Make-Up artist Robin right before Opening Number of the Finale. Robin gave her hair this curled 1920s-esque style that looked absolutely fantastic on her and Lilianna's make up was flawless all week. Thanks Robin!
Aurelia Anne
18 July 2014 @ 02:50 pm

1. I just did the nuttiest thing. This person posted MY DRESS in a NAM resale group and one of my pageant mom friends posted asking for the size. Now, her daughter is a division down from mine but I still freaked anyways. Like I said, I did the nuttiest thing. I msged the woman and asked her if there was any way she would consider not selling the dress to anyone in PA. I apologized profusely and said that I'm not really this nutty in real life and that I understood it was her dress to sell to whomever she chose. No response yet, but hopefully she'll just read it and take it into consideration. Like I said, Whackadoodle.

2. I was watching TV and a commercial came on advertising the Philadelphia Orchestra performing the score from Star Trek: Into Darkness at the Mann. My first thought was wow! That would be great for X and me to go to! We could sit back and hold hands. Oh wait. Then my next thought was I'll just text him and let him know about it considering our history with these Star Trek movies and I actually picked up my phone. Oh wait. I can't do that either.

It's funny what grabs you, ya know?

Update: Mom wrote me back and said she would make the effort to try not to sell to anyone in PA because she knew where I was coming from. HA! Yay pageant moms.

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Here's Lilianna with some of her Pennsylvania Sister Queens
Aurelia Anne
I realized I didn't give you a photo yesterday, so here are two:

Hanging out at the Pre-Teen PJ Party. Every region wears the same PJs, Lilianna's are for the Northeast.


Lilianna at the Orientation Pep Rally with her Rally sign

Aurelia Anne
17 July 2014 @ 06:08 pm

Lilianna's birthday is coming up, it's August 3rd. I've been asking her for weeks what kind of birthday party she wants.
Shrug "I don't know"
What kind of cake do you want?
Shrug "Doesn't matter. Can you decorate the apartment?"

I had been suspecting what was going on but that confirmed it for me. She didn't want to talk about her birthday, didn't give me any idea what she wanted, wouldn't say what she wanted to do. She was acting like she didn't care or that it didn't matter to her. Lilianna's birthday is also my father's birthday. She doesn't know what it's like to have to celebrate a birthday without him. Until now.

I point blank asked her last night and she cried and cried. Broke my heart. Broke my heart in a million pieces. I told her Grandad would not want her to be sad on their birthday--it's her birthday too and she should have fun and be happy. And she cried harder.

You selfish sonofabitch. You sefish, selfish motherfucker. You should be here. It's your birthday too. Your granddaughter shouldn't be crying over her birthday.

Aurelia Anne
15 July 2014 @ 01:00 pm
I've never been to Vegas before in my life.

I booked a trip for a couple of days at the end of August. My friend Beth was supposed to come with me, but she had something at work come up and can't go so it looks like I'm going by myself. I think i'm booked for the 19th-22nd. I'd totally be cool if someone wanted to come with me but I'm cool with going by myself.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do there. I'm not really big on gambling. I wouldn't mind shopping but I doubt I'd be able to afford anything. If i was going to take a trip by myself this isn't exactly what I would've chosen. but there it is.

So I'm throwing it out to the universe, anyone want to come? At any rate, I bet i'll have some boss pictures :) 
Aurelia Anne

Lilianna (left), with the International Princess Novalee (middle), and Ohio Pre-Teen Moriah (right)
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I feel like that crown was made for her head